DNOW 2018 Recap: Doubting that God would Answer - Erin Cyrier
Leading up to a weekend I often take for granted, my heart was searching for answers. I believed that my DNOW weekend was where I was going to find them and hear from the Lord. What I realized is that I had been looking in all the wrong places. I never went to God and prayed or even acknowledged him, yet I expected answers about the direction in which my life was meant to go. We must go to God. God will always be there when we need him, but we have to acknowledge Him ourselves in order for us to feel him and experience him. While I was at DNOW this weekend, I prayed for one of the first times in months. I had been stubborn that praying to God wasn’t going to do anything. As I discovered this weekend, I was doubting that God would do anything. I’ve recently been struggling to find the path that I’m supposed to be on and what I’m supposed to be pursuing in the future in order to glorify God more. Should I continue to write, or should I pursue something else? The path is still unclear to me, however what I do know now is that it is okay. God’s plan is always going to be better than my plan and wherever he calls me I will be able to remain in the light out of obedience to follow along with his plan that glorifies him. Anxiety and confusion are no longer the the things that consume my mind or heart. God is never going to let me down. So whom shall I fear if the light is leading me down my path away from the darkness? It’s okay to not know what’s up ahead. I can confidently say that is not something easy for me to admit. But I don't have to know when or why or how or who or anything. As long as I know that the path God is calling me on will allow me to remain in the light, nothing can stop me.